Things continue to go well, far in excess of my best possible imagining. The device remains locked on, and I'm getting through life while acclimatizing myself to constantly being caged. In some ways it feels so fantastic that it's difficult to explain. Enforced chastity (even if the "enforced" has a very simple release clause at the moment) really touches my submissive soul. I feel sexually captive, which likely explains the urge to have a keyholder I care about. It's a very nice way to connect.
After my run yesterday, I did feel some surface skin soreness on the underside of the ring. That will go away as I run more with the device on... it's skin getting accustomed to being rubbed in a new place.
Last night I woke up several times again, each time with a raging non-erection. It takes some time to let that subside, but it's hard to get it to go away when all I can think about is the cage, which feels erotic as hell. It's a vicious cycle that does, eventually, calm down.
I put the cage on Saturday, then set up the automated keyholder function on Keysafe.org on Sunday. That commitment passed yesterday, but I did not unlock. I really want to go a week before removing it and cleaning everything. That will be a HUGE milestone for me. Depending on how things look when I take it off, I may decide to continue the experiment.
No, I have no idea where this is going.
But so far it's been fun, and for the first time since starting to learn about this topic, I'm able to participate "for real" without unduly impacting my life. This opens up all sorts of opportunities. That makes me happy.
One more experiment when I get home. More on that later.
Thursday, May 21, 2015
Wednesday, May 20, 2015
Sleeping and Running
Last night was tougher than others so far. I woke up three times with a crushed erection and an extreme desire to pee. So I waited ten minutes or so for the pressure to decrease, took care of the bathroom tasks, and went back to sleep. There was no pain, and the pressure did pass, but three times in one night is unusual. I remember that days three through five are the toughest, and I'm on day four. So... there you go. I suspect that this will pass.
On a really positive note, though, I ran 6.5 miles this morning. Again, the dangly bits are a bit sore from being ignored for so long, now a definite blue. So there was some slight discomfort at the beginning. By the end of the run, though, everything was just fine, and I hardly noticed that I was wearing the device. The running issue seems to be solved.
When I tried to stretch after the run, though, one of my preferred positions -- somewhat akin to a pretzel made out of tangled legs -- is not doable with the device on. I just get crushed. But there are alternatives that I can use to get the same effect.
Another day locked, and things seem to be going well. Much better, in fact, than I anticipated. Maybe I should start looking into getting a secure keysafe?
On a really positive note, though, I ran 6.5 miles this morning. Again, the dangly bits are a bit sore from being ignored for so long, now a definite blue. So there was some slight discomfort at the beginning. By the end of the run, though, everything was just fine, and I hardly noticed that I was wearing the device. The running issue seems to be solved.
When I tried to stretch after the run, though, one of my preferred positions -- somewhat akin to a pretzel made out of tangled legs -- is not doable with the device on. I just get crushed. But there are alternatives that I can use to get the same effect.
Another day locked, and things seem to be going well. Much better, in fact, than I anticipated. Maybe I should start looking into getting a secure keysafe?
Tuesday, May 19, 2015
Pressure Starting to Build
I had to make a trip in a car today, and sitting in the seat was uncomfortable after a while. The seats in that car are not exactly °bucket seats,° but they are individually formed and tend to hold the thighs together. As my dangly bits get tender from lack of attention (one might even describe them as turning blue) I have started to notice such things.
Yes, the fruit is starting to ripen, and for someone who is used to relief every day, that's a tough thing to get used to. I don't know if that will change the nighttime experience, but I'm about to find out. Other aches, deeper still, are beginning. That may be just as much of a distraction, eventually, but for now it's actually quite pleasant.
I have to say that I'm pretty pleased to have come this far with so little negative effects. The new device really seems to be a game changer. I'm really thinking that I'd like to make it a week and overcome all the previous barriers. It's odd, though, being locked with nobody holding the key... empty, I suppose. Oh, well... on with the experiment, then I can worry about the rest later.
Yes, the fruit is starting to ripen, and for someone who is used to relief every day, that's a tough thing to get used to. I don't know if that will change the nighttime experience, but I'm about to find out. Other aches, deeper still, are beginning. That may be just as much of a distraction, eventually, but for now it's actually quite pleasant.
I have to say that I'm pretty pleased to have come this far with so little negative effects. The new device really seems to be a game changer. I'm really thinking that I'd like to make it a week and overcome all the previous barriers. It's odd, though, being locked with nobody holding the key... empty, I suppose. Oh, well... on with the experiment, then I can worry about the rest later.
Monday, May 18, 2015
Another Big Leap
Well, now I've done it. This is what happens when you go and get all cocky. Okay, maybe that's an unfortunate word for it. Over confident might be better.
I got a call today and am going to see clients for two days. I've been locked in the Holy Trainer since it arrived on Saturday with no negative side effects so far, and that includes running and sleeping. So what the hell.
I turned "authorization" for release over to the automated feature (called Strict Mistress) at Keysafe.org. I've authorized a couple of Dommes to make tweaks to the conditions, so I'll find out more about how all that works. But the guardrails of the experience are pretty well set.
Obviously, I'm taking a key with me, so it's all honor system. I'm not stupid and am very much still in experimental mode. But I'm the one driving all this, so I'm the only one I can disappoint.
The emotionally difficult days (three through six) are just coming up, so I need to be able to get out of real trouble if it comes to that. (Pardon the pun.) For instance, if I'm still awake in a sexual frenzy at 2:00 a.m. with an important meeting in the morning, priorities shift to getting the job done for the client. This is a very interesting sexual diversion, but at the moment it's just a game.
So, committing to as much as three more days locked up (though Strict Mistress has the final say) and hitting the road. That's a huge step. As of tomorrow morning I will have met my current record for length of time continuously locked up. If I make it to this milestone, I'll have to decide if I go for a week. Wouldn't that be cool? More? I wonder if my motivation would hold out?
When I put the device on last Saturday afternoon, it was just for a "test fit." This is some incredible "test fit." I wonder what it will turn into, ultimately?
Holy crap... I may have to get the prostrate massage tool out when I get back. Eeeeep!
I got a call today and am going to see clients for two days. I've been locked in the Holy Trainer since it arrived on Saturday with no negative side effects so far, and that includes running and sleeping. So what the hell.
I turned "authorization" for release over to the automated feature (called Strict Mistress) at Keysafe.org. I've authorized a couple of Dommes to make tweaks to the conditions, so I'll find out more about how all that works. But the guardrails of the experience are pretty well set.
Obviously, I'm taking a key with me, so it's all honor system. I'm not stupid and am very much still in experimental mode. But I'm the one driving all this, so I'm the only one I can disappoint.
The emotionally difficult days (three through six) are just coming up, so I need to be able to get out of real trouble if it comes to that. (Pardon the pun.) For instance, if I'm still awake in a sexual frenzy at 2:00 a.m. with an important meeting in the morning, priorities shift to getting the job done for the client. This is a very interesting sexual diversion, but at the moment it's just a game.
So, committing to as much as three more days locked up (though Strict Mistress has the final say) and hitting the road. That's a huge step. As of tomorrow morning I will have met my current record for length of time continuously locked up. If I make it to this milestone, I'll have to decide if I go for a week. Wouldn't that be cool? More? I wonder if my motivation would hold out?
When I put the device on last Saturday afternoon, it was just for a "test fit." This is some incredible "test fit." I wonder what it will turn into, ultimately?
Holy crap... I may have to get the prostrate massage tool out when I get back. Eeeeep!
First Run
I made it through another night wearing the Holy Trainer 2. Yes, I had another nocturnal "event," but as with the first time, it was not painful and I was able to get through it. Twice.
This morning was another milestone regarding an impossibility with the CB series of devices: running. I need to run, or stop eating. Running is preferable. So if a device cannot be worn while running, then it's of little use to me. (I'd love to find one that allowed distance cycling, but unfettered male equipment in general is borderline on that score, so it's a lot to ask.)
Of course, shorts are important, so I wore the baggiest I have. I also kept the route to four miles to start... will work up to more through the week. But it was fine. I can't put it any other way. I could feel it, but there wasn't a lot of rubbing or pulling, so the compactness of the thing pays off again. It was even a faster run that I've had in a couple of weeks.
We'll see if there is any bruising or other negative impacts, but I doubt there will be. It simply wasn't a big deal.
So, more excuses by the wayside.
There are two more hurdles to get over with regard to longer-term wear:
1) "Keeping fluids moving," for lack of a better term, and
2) the emotional impacts of long-term wear. This is soon to become the difficult and interesting part, I think.
Only two days in on this experiment, but my record for wear is three days without removal. That is starting to look ridiculously short. Wait... did I just say that? Good thing nobody reads this blog.
This morning was another milestone regarding an impossibility with the CB series of devices: running. I need to run, or stop eating. Running is preferable. So if a device cannot be worn while running, then it's of little use to me. (I'd love to find one that allowed distance cycling, but unfettered male equipment in general is borderline on that score, so it's a lot to ask.)
Of course, shorts are important, so I wore the baggiest I have. I also kept the route to four miles to start... will work up to more through the week. But it was fine. I can't put it any other way. I could feel it, but there wasn't a lot of rubbing or pulling, so the compactness of the thing pays off again. It was even a faster run that I've had in a couple of weeks.
We'll see if there is any bruising or other negative impacts, but I doubt there will be. It simply wasn't a big deal.
So, more excuses by the wayside.
There are two more hurdles to get over with regard to longer-term wear:
1) "Keeping fluids moving," for lack of a better term, and
2) the emotional impacts of long-term wear. This is soon to become the difficult and interesting part, I think.
Only two days in on this experiment, but my record for wear is three days without removal. That is starting to look ridiculously short. Wait... did I just say that? Good thing nobody reads this blog.
Sunday, May 17, 2015
First Night
Well, last night was certainly a milestone. I went out with the Holy Trainer still on and was fine all evening, even though there was some bicycle riding involved. Absolutely NOT time trialing, mind you, but casual path riding at slow pace to get to dinner. Not a problem.
The real news is that I kept the device on over night. It was no problem getting to sleep, and I woke up around 5:00 a.m. very aroused. But NOT in pain! That's a HUGE milestone. The fact that I could feel the hydraulics trying to do their thing and not NOT having my equipment ripped from my body was a new sensation. I'm not saying it was entirely pleasant, but I was well assured -- for the first time wearing a device in this situation -- that no actual damage was being done to my body.
As a side note, I'm also able to use a urinal, something that's impossible with the CB series. There's so much room in the tube with the CB design that the fluid flows all over the place inside before seeking every exit -- including out the back -- under pressure. It's a mess. With the HT, though, everything is snug and in place, so the critical exit point is lined up with the hole in the end of the device. It's like not wearing anything.
I'm kind of stuck at home today waiting for a delivery for which I must sign, but if I can go for a run in the morning without removing the HT, then this could be the device I've been looking for, a real game changer.
But then all of my excuses will be gone. I'm not sure how I feel about that. Excited and terrified at the same time. I think how I feel at any given moment has a lot to do with the person I imagine handing control of my keys.
More to come soon.
The real news is that I kept the device on over night. It was no problem getting to sleep, and I woke up around 5:00 a.m. very aroused. But NOT in pain! That's a HUGE milestone. The fact that I could feel the hydraulics trying to do their thing and not NOT having my equipment ripped from my body was a new sensation. I'm not saying it was entirely pleasant, but I was well assured -- for the first time wearing a device in this situation -- that no actual damage was being done to my body.
As a side note, I'm also able to use a urinal, something that's impossible with the CB series. There's so much room in the tube with the CB design that the fluid flows all over the place inside before seeking every exit -- including out the back -- under pressure. It's a mess. With the HT, though, everything is snug and in place, so the critical exit point is lined up with the hole in the end of the device. It's like not wearing anything.
I'm kind of stuck at home today waiting for a delivery for which I must sign, but if I can go for a run in the morning without removing the HT, then this could be the device I've been looking for, a real game changer.
But then all of my excuses will be gone. I'm not sure how I feel about that. Excited and terrified at the same time. I think how I feel at any given moment has a lot to do with the person I imagine handing control of my keys.
More to come soon.
Saturday, May 16, 2015
New Toy!
My problems with the CB-6000 are well documented here, but the most significant have been: cracking of the plastic during extended wear, bulk and fit while participating in endurance sports, and inability to keep the device on during a nocturnal erection. These problems limited the usefulness of the device for being locked up by someone who controls the key. So the emotional connection that chastity can provide was not really possible.
About a week ago, based on a friend's good experiences, I ordered a Holy Trainer 2 chastity device. It seems to be a significant leap forward in design and construction over previous "trapped ball" devices. All of the reviews pointed towards a wearable and durable device that was hygienic and comfortable for long-term wear. The device arrived today. Yes, I'm wearing it now.
My first impression is that it is very much more comfortable than the CB line, mostly because the ring that keeps it on (which fits snug against the torso) is a single piece that is curved to be anatomically correct. This means it can be smaller in diameter and still not pinch, bind, or cut off blood circulation. The plastic feels much sturdier which allows the material of the ring to be thinner, too. I understand it is at least as durable as the CBs, though, so maybe the cracking problem is solved. There may still be a "break in" period, but I suspect not as much as I'm accustomed to... that can sometimes take a week. But if the comfort holds up, I'll try to run in it, a huge barrier currently to extended wear.
The tube is much smaller than the CB, which is a great thing for profile and comfort. I'm wearing an old pair of jeans, and where the CB would have been bulky and in the way, the HT is just slightly in the way. I can almost completely close my legs together before I feel it.
I'll have to wear it for a bit before I really understand its strengths and weaknesses, and it could take weeks of tweaking to really get the hang of it. Only time will tell if I can make it through difficult nights in this thing, but some reviewers say that the design makes this possible.
This is the first time I've felt like I have even the slightest chance of being locked up for more than two or three days. That is making me consider what I really want out of a relationship with a Keyholder and how long I really want to give up control. I am finding as I sit here, though, that I am wishing the keys were not in my hands. That's truly frightening. And hot. And frightening. And hot.
I'm sure there will be more posts soon. Life is a journey, and I'm enjoying this part of mine.
About a week ago, based on a friend's good experiences, I ordered a Holy Trainer 2 chastity device. It seems to be a significant leap forward in design and construction over previous "trapped ball" devices. All of the reviews pointed towards a wearable and durable device that was hygienic and comfortable for long-term wear. The device arrived today. Yes, I'm wearing it now.
My first impression is that it is very much more comfortable than the CB line, mostly because the ring that keeps it on (which fits snug against the torso) is a single piece that is curved to be anatomically correct. This means it can be smaller in diameter and still not pinch, bind, or cut off blood circulation. The plastic feels much sturdier which allows the material of the ring to be thinner, too. I understand it is at least as durable as the CBs, though, so maybe the cracking problem is solved. There may still be a "break in" period, but I suspect not as much as I'm accustomed to... that can sometimes take a week. But if the comfort holds up, I'll try to run in it, a huge barrier currently to extended wear.
The tube is much smaller than the CB, which is a great thing for profile and comfort. I'm wearing an old pair of jeans, and where the CB would have been bulky and in the way, the HT is just slightly in the way. I can almost completely close my legs together before I feel it.
I'll have to wear it for a bit before I really understand its strengths and weaknesses, and it could take weeks of tweaking to really get the hang of it. Only time will tell if I can make it through difficult nights in this thing, but some reviewers say that the design makes this possible.
This is the first time I've felt like I have even the slightest chance of being locked up for more than two or three days. That is making me consider what I really want out of a relationship with a Keyholder and how long I really want to give up control. I am finding as I sit here, though, that I am wishing the keys were not in my hands. That's truly frightening. And hot. And frightening. And hot.
I'm sure there will be more posts soon. Life is a journey, and I'm enjoying this part of mine.
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