Wow... That's Interesting

I arrived home this afternoon from my latest business trip.  There was a decent chance that my most recent purchases would be waiting for me, and I indeed found several boxes on my doorstep.  Woo hoo!  The key items include a Hitachi Magic Wand and 8-ounce squirt bottles.

My intent has been to conquer the last two problems in the way of long-term chastity device wear:  hygiene and prostate health.  Since I went on this trip unlocked, I changed into something less businesslike (nothing, actually) and locked my Holy Trainer 2 onto myself.  Then I put a condom and some lube on my Aneros-like prostate massager and placed it into position.  Once that was in place, I turned on the Hitachi and started to rub it around on the Holy Trainer.

Oh. My. God.

I was amazed at how fast the vibrations -- when propagating through my lower body cavity -- created extremely erotic sensations.  It didn't take long before I felt a familiar build-up.  Because I've never been close to any kind of release with a device on, I made no attempt to stifle or prolong things.  After several minutes, I felt what I can only describe as a partial orgasm.  There as a pumping sensation, but nothing came out.  After a few seconds, there was one more spasm and a significant ejaculation shot out.

I was genuinely surprised at this.  I expected frustration and little "production" during the first try, because I've had such a difficult time up until now.  But it worked flawlessly.

Some guys report not feeling any let-down of sexual tension when they release fluid like this.  But I felt a sense of physical relief.  It just wasn't an orgasm with the incredible feeling of satisfaction that I'm accustomed to.

My understanding is that to exercise the prostate I should be doing this every day or couple of days, pretty much as often as I would normally masturbate.  I'll try it a few times this weekend and see what happens.  I'm locked until Sunday morning, so might as well.

The other aspect is the hygiene part.  I've loaded up a bottle for a good cleaning in the morning.  Since I'm only locked for a few days, it's not a big deal.  But if I'm going on a trip locked, I should work out any bugs here first.  I bought a small soft toothbrush in case I can get it into the device.  Not sure I can, but it seemed worth a try.

Thanks for taking this journey with me.  I feel like I'm making progress and hope I continue to do so.

Again, thanks to Miss Bonnie and "Admin" over at Collar n' Cuffs for the "help" with this.  With friends like you, who needs enemies?  Haha.  "Help, help... my friends are trying to lock me up!!!"

Quick Update

So I'm locked up again, keys in the care of Strict Mistress at Keysafe.org.  I'm going for short stints for now, three to four days at a time so that I can keep the plumbing working.

I have received some great advice on prostate stimulation and cleaning, and my Hitachi Magic Wand should be here before long.  With luck, these minor adjustments will solve my plumbing problems.  With health taken care of, I can focus on extending my "stay."  Would be nice to go a month, just to see what that feels like.  Not sure how long I want to go.  I do have some things coming up on my calendar that will require not wearing a cage.  But they're a ways out right now.

Anyway, just wanted to post an update to let everyone know that I'm still active as I keep working on the last few issues.

Oh, and I'm typing this while wearing a short swing skirt and heels.  So there.

Preparing for Another Run

I've encountered two problems with extended chastity:

1)  cleaning and keeping everything inside healthy and hygienic, and
2)  keeping the plumbing from atrophying and causing health problems later in life.  (No use wearing a diaper sooner than I really need to.  Haha.)

The first appears to have been solved by Miss Bonnie over at Collar 'n Cuffs (thank you Miss Bonnie!!!) with her suggestion of using condiment squirt bottles to spray cleansing fluids into the device while showering.  I've ordered a couple of bottles and will see how well that works.  I suspect it will be a fine solution.

The second barrier is a bit tougher.  The prostate needs to be exercised at least every few days, daily if possible.  Without coming out of the device, the only real way to get the semen pump working is through direct contact and / or stimulation with vibration.  I tried the direct approach with little success.  In fact, the frustration was so great that it generated more anger than fluid.  So I'm trying the vibration approach.  I have a Hitachi headed my way, and it should be here in a couple of weeks.

My plan is to lock up and start trying after three or four days to get fluid flow going.  By day five, I'm typically pretty worked up, so I'm hoping that will work.  I'll keep reading and looking for techniques that work.  Suggestions are welcome.

This is the last barrier to long-term wear.  I have a device that seems to work, a lock box, and would really like to know what it's like to be locked up for a month or longer.  I know that my mind changes after three days, then again after about a week.  But I don't know where it goes from there.  And this really is all about twisting the mind, which is why I like it so much.

Look for another post in a week or ten days.  I'll lock up and hope the Hitachi is on time.  The we'll see what happens.  Okay, maybe I'll lock up for a few days at a time until then, just... because.  *whimper*

Getting "Over the Hump"

My plan for the weekend was to figure out how to keep my "plumbing" in order during long-term wear.  Health is my Number One consideration, obviously.  The most important two health-related issues with long-term wear are:  sanitation inside the device and keeping the prostate healthy.

Sunday afternoon I attempted to exercise the prostate. This is best done "from inside," but does take some practice.  I compounded the problem by doing a really bad job of cleaning out back there.  In the end, I was frustrated at being frustrated and made mess of the whole thing.

I'm travelling a bit for work at the moment and can't really do what I want when I want.  That throws another monkey wrench into the whole equation.  Even if I figured out the technique, I'm not sure when I'd get to apply what I learned.

Out of frustration, I took off the cage.  I was not thrilled with what I found.  A handful of very tiny blood vessels visible behind the corona, grey appearance to the head, and an awful stench.  Obviously, I'm not doing well enough in the hygiene department and will have to figure that out.

So, more obstacles to overcome.  In the short term, I made the decision to travel without the cage for a week and do some research.

But there is also the emotional side of things.  After a time -- it appears that with me two weeks is getting into the neighborhood -- my own personal kink isn't enough to keep the cage on.  I'm not sure how that would work if I was playing with someone who was into it.  I just don't know.  I had read that feelings get transferred to the keyholder, but I'm not sure what that would look like or feel like.

So, taking a week off while I figure some of this out.  I'll state as I have in the past that anyone who claims to just put a device on and wear it long term is lying.  It's not easy, though I admit that I probably make it harder than most.

Taking a break

So, I have my unlock code and have decided that I'm taking a break from the chastity experiment for a while.  The fact is that I don't have anyone to be chaste for.  That makes a huge difference, and I'm at the point in my journey at which I need the connection to keep going.

Also, my schedule is suddenly extraordinarily packed, so I'm going to focus on life in general for a bit and come back to this when it makes sense.  Will keep you all informed!  Thanks for stopping by and reading.

Plus and Minus

The lock on the Holy Trainer 2 is not a traditional padlock.  It is integrated into the device and is barely visible when everything is assembled.  To get the device on, one must have the key so that the mechanism can be shifted into the locked position before the key is removed.

This is a negative if a keyholder wishes to ship a lock sans keys to the wearer, or if a numbered disposable lock is preferred.

On the bright side, it makes for an ultra sleek device.  And if a wearer LIKES wearing the device, the keys can be controlled so that the HT2 can't be put on and locked.  How's that for double-reverse insane motivation alignment?

"You haven't been good enough to wear the chastity device."

"Nooooooo!  I'll be good, I swear!"

"Nope.  Keys stay locked up for now."

"Dammit."

Okay, I'm confused.  Time for bed.

Progression

I think that my lack of blogging here is a milestone in itself.  Yes, I'm still in the HT2, so far without complications or problems.  In fact, I'm not waking up so often at night, and I don't notice the device while out and about.  Yes, going to the bathroom still takes a small amount of planning, but that's not the big deal it once was.

The biggest surprise this time around is the emotional / sexual change.  I'm not as desperate as I was after a few days the first week I was in chastity.  Even though I "cleared the pipes" several times last weekend -- purely for health reasons, you understand -- the total sexual insanity endured during days 3 - 5 of lockdown are nowhere near as intense this time.  In fact, the device feels "safe" rather than like an infernal barrier.

And that brings me to the psychological changes.  While locked up, I feel less like a participant in the sexual dance and more like a neutral observer.  (Or is it neutered observer?)  I still absolutely LOVE being around women and all things feminine, but the constant male calculus of who might be flirting or like what she sees just isn't happening like it does when I'm not locked up.  I feel appreciation and admiration without a need to perform in a particular way.  So... feelings of safety times two.  What is up with that?

I will very soon -- as in this weekend -- have to figure out how to keep my prostate healthy while locked up.  If I can crack the code on that issue, then there is no reason I can't stay locked up for longer periods.  Intellectually, I understand the methods; but reading a post or article on "how to" does not help make it happen.  It's a learned sensation to some extent, and I have not yet learned it.

Strict Mistress at keysafe.org will give me the combination to my lock box by end of day tomorrow.  I'd like to just roll over into another period of lockdown, perhaps just go on a weekly cycle.  That rollover period will be my only chance to make some key adjustments, like offering keys to a potential keyholder or allowing authorized people to tweak my lockdown time and other settings.  I'll be thinking about that over the next day or so.  I've been ratcheting up the intensity pretty rapidly, and so far that has been fine.  I've ultimately been in control, and no third parties have really had much say in anything.  The progression I am going through looks something like:

1)  Lock device on for a few hours; work out wearability issues.
2)  Lock device on for a few days; carry keys with me at all times.
3)  Lock device on for a week; keep keys nearby.
4)  Lock device on for a week; lock keys in keysafe; keep safe master key accessible.
5)  Lock device on for a week at a time; update settings each week; lock keys in keysafe; master key accessible in emergency, but tamper evident. (This is where I am now.)
6)  Turn keys over to Keyholder;  lock device on for indefinite period; lock keys in keysafe; master key remotely accessible in an extreme emergency, but tamper evident and / or under someone else's control.


Oh, and I've been toying with a design for an Arduino module that goes in a keysafe and reports a log to the keyholder via wireless e-mail, so she/he knows any time the safe has been opened or moved.  Am I nuts?!